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Hi

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 03:11:16 GMT

You probably don't remember me.

Maybe you do. I am KiT - or Radi, or Janet, or Ton, whichever you knew me by. Most of the people who have this journal friended, I haven't spoken to in over a year.

Most of you knew and talked to me personally at one point, and I'd like to thank you for putting up with me, because most of you knew me during my greatest periods of immaturity.

I don't really have a need for a public journal anymore. The closest thing I have is my deviantART journal, which I use for bare minimum commentary rather than a personal journal to keep track of what I did that day, which is what I tried to do with this journal. Everything feels too private to talk about publicly anymore and I don't really want to be the kind of person who makes cryptic references to everything.

So... this is it. This is my final entry - for real this time. Thanks for being a friend, thanks for reading my inane entries over the years and supporting me through them. Even if you don't remember me, thank you.

If you want to contact me, all my usual IM info is on my profile. I keep an art page as well.

Bye.

So I said to him, it's my goat, I've been tending goats since I was four years old

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 10:49:57 GMT

and I'd know if my goat was in love with you.

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 15:43:15 GMT

HI GUYS

I've been watching a lot of Scrubs and Law & Order lately, mostly Scrubs. Ah yes. And I've been playing a lot of Elite Beat Agents.

This last sentence is not an understatement, I must emphasize. There is a bruise (you can feel the bump very prominently) on my middle finger thanks to the dent my stylus made in my finger while I was playing.

Sort of old news, but I beat Pokemon and stuff. Now, to become a Pokemon Master; the essence of my childhood will fade away once its small, insignificant dream of being heralded as a champion of Pokemon has been sated, leaving me as a soulless embodiment of immorality whose ragged corpse will be dragged by the hounds of Hell into eternal darkness, my body bound and beaten for the numerous sins I have accumulated over these past few years, starting with the thousands of words I have written on the subject of vampire lawyers.

Ahem.

Not many series of manga have managed to keep my attention lately, but Negima! is pretty cool. One would think a series with 31 main female characters would be hard to keep track of, but it's actually pretty simple to follow, and combines the harem comedy of Love Hina with the delightful elements of stereotypical anime schoolgirls (read: compulsive habits of falling over, either falling onto the male lead character in a suggestive position or in a position that conveniently shows their panties and/or breasts to the reader, but I guess that applies to most women in anime) and magic. Everyone loves magic. And everyone knows that when a magician sneezes, women's skirts magically fly up (seriously, this actually happens).

Random detail: I went to an Office Depot with my family, loaded up one of their laptops, went immediately to Notepad, typed "SEE MY VEST" in size 72 bold italic and ran out giggling insanely.

Sleep is needed now.

Tue, 15 May 2007 16:53:09 GMT

So guys I had a question

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Wed, 09 May 2007 10:55:38 GMT

Hi, guys. Sorry I haven't written in a while.

Life has been a general mess.

It hurts, not being able to express how you feel about someone. Knowing that they love you, too, that they're so close, but you can't be together due to circumstances that neither of you can help. And you're told this is the way things need to be, you keep telling yourself that this is the way things have to be, and even if you know it's what she says and it can't be changed, your mind keeps rebelling, you keep bringing it up, you hate yourself for it.

It hurts when, even when you ask or bring it up or say how much it hurts, you're reminded again that you have to be friends. Only friends. Friends don't kiss or touch or share affections that cause hearts to flutter merely thinking about the words, let alone typing them; even if they're so far away you're madly in love with this person, you can't stop thinking about this person, you feel a connection with them unlike any other. I take every little touch or affection I can get with glee.

When... I talk to her it feels like I really connect, on a level I didn't think was possible for me. I've always been the funny girl, fun to talk to, etc, but I don't really talk about my problems often. That might be my problem but I also don't really feel able to open up. But with her I have no problem with that at all. It's incredible.

I've had relationships before, yes. Brief, fleeting moments of sexual tension with Kai when I thought there was something more there, and the bit with Riel that never really felt like a relationship, complicated by my raging hormones that were left largely unsated by a man who had never once mentioned my vagina in some six months (if I recall?) of dating. Crushes, yes, numerous. But God, I have never felt like this, it has never been like this. I've never had my breath catch in my throat, I've never felt a shudder just from reading words. I think it's honestly the first time I've ever truly been in love.

This is all further fucked up by another friend's feelings - a friend who confessed to me that she was madly goddamn in love with me. It's painful and awkward (as well as painfully awkward) to tell someone who would throw themselves in traffic for you that the feeling is not returned; doubly so, explaining that I really highly doubt I will like them anytime soon (I felt like a jerk saying it, but she was getting her hopes up and I didn't want her to be hurt more by that) and, no, I do not give pity relationships to those I am not attracted to.

So, I've been having mixed feelings, and I've felt more depressed lately, but I'm trying to get into the habit of regular exercise so hopefully that will help. Thankfully my hypochondria has hidden itself away for the time being; it's been a while since my last panic attack, and while certain tendencies linger, it's mostly gone.

I bought Pokemon Pearl. It's cool. I have seven badges.

My father bought a motorcycle. Apparently he used to ride them a lot back in the day, so now he has one again and he's loving the hell out of it. I can't wait til he gets his license - he has his permit, and until he gets his license it's illegal for him to ride with a passenger or at night. I'm looking forward to riding with him. My brother got his motorcycle and permit as well, for his eighteenth birthday which was a little while ago - a smaller, fast son of a bitch Suzuki.

I had a particularly disturbing dream in which I was tortured in multiple gruesome ways, too wretched to detail here. That'll probably haunt me for a little while. Who knew one's subconscious was so fucked up? Mine, at the least.

CSI last week was nucking futs. I'm pretty sure the ending was a red herring, though.

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 22:01:34 GMT

So I picked up Viva Pinata.

It's supposed to be a kid's game, yeah, but it's actually pretty fun so far. Not to mention the pinatas are downright adorable. The pinata sex is mildly disturbing, though.

I would really like more space for my pinata garden; this is a minor setback at the moment, but if I do cultivate over 60 species of pinata as the game advertises, shit is going to get really cramped really fast.

Hitting NPCs with a shovel is fun.

Also, Puzzle Quest. It's still Really Addicting Rape, and a good timewaster.

I'm getting more into Phantasy Star Universe, again. Trying to beat Story Mode. And dressing my twig (seriously - my Force is thin as a goddamn rail, if a sharp breeze blew by it'd snap his legs in two) in assless chaps and fur coats pretty fun.

I amuse myself with juvenile pastimes, such as drawing a butt and proceeding to draw all manner of funny faces on said butt.

GEEEEEEZE, I'M SPARTACUS

cocks

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 12:50:22 GMT

Hi guys. I'm not dead.

But, I don't really have anything to write about.

Roleplay... and PSU... and video games. I raped my brother at a game of Puzzle Fighter.

I had some cake and it was good

Goodnight.

Doctor's appointment

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 23:52:50 GMT

The doctor's appointment went well. The doctor was pretty awesome. She's from Estonia, which is some foreign country that used to be in the USSR, and has a great accent because of it (it kind of reminds me of Russian and Swedish). Even with the accent I could understand her perfectly and she was nice and asked questions and listened to mine, which I hear is a problem with some doctors.

I asked about my hypochondria; she said it's pretty normal for kids around my age (especially with a history of anxiety in their families - I have no prior anxiety but my mother is a very nervous person by nature, and my father experiences panic attacks) to worry about their own mortality and stuff, but if it got to the point where it was interfering with daily life, I could go to counseling. So she gave me a number for counseling. I'm not sure if it's hypochondria counseling or just general anxiety counseling, and if it's group counseling or what. But I'll check it out later.

I got a basic physical - everything seems to be in order - and got blood taken also, to check for thyroid problems linked to anxiety as well as chicken pox (Mom isn't sure if I had it as a kid or not). We got some of the results back today. Nothing about chicken pox or thyroids (that sounds too much like "gyroids"), so I guess there's another part coming soon. But they did the basic tests - haemoglobin, sodium, blood sugar, glucose count, etc, as well as kidney problems - and it seems I am within the average for all of them!

Well, except for one - Basophil. The average is 0-1, and I am 2. Wikipedia says Basophil is one of two things - I'm going to guess Basophil granulocyte. It says nothing about a high count, but a low count could mean future leukemia. So... better high than low I guess. I'm mostly just happy to know that my glucose and blood sugar are normal, since I do eat a lot of sweets and it was something I worried about.

I got Elite Beat Agents and Puzzle Quest. Puzzle Quest is basically addictive rape. You get reamed by opponents a lot but you just can't put the damn thing down. It's really addictive! It's basically Bejeweled + RPG elements. There's a level up system and spells and equipment and a plot and it's wonderful. I suggest it to anyone who enjoys puzzles, RPGs, and the idea of a puzzle RPG.

Elite Beat Agents is both ridiculous and hilarious. It's great. The gameplay is amusing as well.

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 21:16:38 GMT

So I FINALLY got around to watching Advent Children. As predicted, it was pretty damn awesome, though I got confused as to what was going on once or twice during the fight scenes (which were also pretty damn awesome even if EVERYBODY JUMPS LIKE 50 FEET IN THE AIR). That was really cool, though. I mean, all the CG and stuff... One thing that bothers me is the lack of realism in battles. I don't mean the aforementioned 50-feet jumps, but the fact that not once did they get a single scratch or a single bit of dirt on their clothes/face.

I'm surprised that I didn't see more fanboys having total, fullbody orgasms over this thing. Seriously, what with all the FFVII fanboys who spend every day analyzing every goddamn detail of the game, from Aeris's horribly mistranslated lines to the curve of Tifa's polygons. They must've just been... masturbating for 12 hours straight after this.

I got some animeeee. Normally I don't buy anime unless it's really damn cheap and I really like the series (hellooo genshiken for $10) but mum and dad said they'd buy me something. So I got two things - they came bundled together, I only really wanted one of them, but combined they were the price of a normal anime DVD so I went "eh, what the hell". They are: Speed Grapher, and Desert Punk. The former revolves around a guy who's an ex-war photographer in a kind of futuristic Tokyo where the poor get poorer and the richer spend their monies in pleasure clubs. And... reading the summary on Anime News Network, apparently he can make things explode just by taking a picture of them.

Awesome.

And... the latter is basically some horny guy in the desert who likes breasts. He really likes breasts. It seems like an obnoxious shounen gag anime but I might watch it for kicks.

Also, when I set up my radio to play when my alarm goes off in the morning (well... afternoon), why is it really painful songs tend to come on? Gah, I swear my ears were bleeding when I woke up today, and I was too tired to get up and turn it off.

Prison anal

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 03:36:44 GMT

So. I fell in love with a girl.

But there cannot and will not be a relationship there. So I am sad. I guess that's an understatement, but... yeah.

Maybe I should just go strictly dyke when it comes to dating. I'm so confused, they're all I really find myself attracted to anymore. I like a good man chest, yes, and I still find myself attracted to a man's body and enjoy writing about them fucking eachother, but I just don't really find myself drawn to male personalities. And I don't find myself all that physically attracted to women, yet I love their personalities and mentalities. (Looks don't really matter to me anymore when it comes to relationships, anyway...)

So ... I need a girl in a guy's body, I guess.

My mind's torn in a thousand directions lately and I just can't really seem to get a break... My head hurts when I try to think about everything that's happened recently. But when I do it's like it comes up as one big fog.

I beat Indigo Prophecy. It was really good, though the plot got kind of crazy at the end. And it was far, far too short. :( I was going "Oh, it... it's over? It's... over..." for like two hours afterwards. It was really good though.

I guess I should work on beating KH so I can play KHII and find out what the hell this Organization Xylophone is all about.

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 04:25:22 GMT

hnnghhgg.

Why is it whenever I really want to wake up early I end up forgetting to set my alarm, and when I'm so tired I'm dozing off every few seconds I end up sleeping for three hours?

Finally beat Phoenix Wright: Justice For All. God, it was amazing. Now that it's over, I'm playing Indigo Prophecy and Kingdom Hearts instead.

The former is a very good game so far and also very hard to describe. If you like games with a lot of attention to detail and a plot that can be changed by every move you choose to make, and neat murder mystery type things, get it.

The latter is... um. What you'd expect. A lot of Disney characters and Final Fantasy characters stuck together. It works surprisingly well, and I've found myself rather charmed by the game. Still upset over Cid, though.

Oh... and Pokemon Ranger. Though their amount of one-sided yes/no questions (where regardless of how many times you say "no", they won't proceed with the game unless you say "yes") is annoying, it's a cute game. I'm really really gay for the graphics since it's all pixels and what have you. And drawing little circles around pokemon is surprisingly addictive.

Getting back into Neopets, sort of. Using the games as a timewaster and playing with my cute little pets. Yaaay.

God, I'm tired.

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 13:21:23 GMT

Revelations over the past month:

1. I am an idiot. An ignorant, stupid idiot.

2. I look like a rapist I guess?

3. I'm starting to think I should just be a jaded hermit who never dates anyone and hire a lot of male strippers all the time. It would work a lot better and more people would visit me.

4. Whoooooooooooooooooooo !!

5. Uncut penises are kind of cute. They're like little pigs in a blanket.

My life feels sort of like it's standing still and I'm longing for more. I'm not really satisfied. I feel like I don't get enough gratification and my life is too monotonous. But I don't really know what to do.

Maybe I should get into paintball. I need to get hit with things more to jar my constant looming fear of dying. Or maybe I should join a band or something. Well technically I am in one, last I checked. I don't know.

I want to dye and cut my hair. I was thinking boyishly short with long fringe but I don't really know.

Have been playing Kingdom Hearts. Every time I talk to Aeris (excuse me, AERITH) I expect Sephiroth to fly down from the ceiling. And what the hell is up with Cid not even getting a voice actor? First you dickheads rob my favorite Final Fantasy character of his cigarettes and swearing, then you give him stupid pants, then you take away his voice when everyone else has one.

Bah. I want to play the second game already so I can be introduced to Team Fabulous or Organization G or Preparation H or whatever their name is. The group where everyone happens to have the letter X in their name and appears to be chock full of spectacular faggots such as Roxas and Axel. Ah, Axel, the crossbreed between Zack, Reno and a clown. I've used this to describe him before but I still think it's rather appropriate.

That way I can hear his "A-X-E-L. Got it memorized?" line and groan terribly because everybody finds it necessary to quote everything until the sheer redundancy drives me up the damn wall. I'm sure he's a great character or something, though, judging by how many hormone-high fangirls are aching to jump his bones at any given moment but instead opt to write bucketloads of gay fanfiction involving him and Roxas.

...Oh, Hades is kind of awesome so far though I haven't seen much of him. But anyone with a crazy blue flame on their head should be pretty cool. And I hear he and Auron are having sex or something, what the fuck? I don't know, I've just seen a lot of slash involving the two.

I don't really want to know.

Brother: every time i talk to goofy
Brother: i expect him to go
Brother: "gyosh, mickey sure has a nice body. i wonder what he's dreaming about? maybe i'll just get naked and fall asleep next to him.."
Myself: you're a terrible person

I probably shouldn't have lent him my copy of KH.

"x" = "tired"
if variable "RadiMood" = "x",
then set variable "Radi's Location" to "bed"

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 23:56:20 GMT

"This account has been suspended until 2010-12-24 @ 6:00 PM for the following reason: This account has been suspended for the violation of rule #5. Users must be 18 to join. Attempts to circumvent this suspension will result in additional account penalties."

^ A notice from y!Gallery, a gallery for posting yaoi.

Wooo! Banned in a DAY! New Record!

Well, maybe not. I know I was banned in less than a day from some Neopets site when me and Gel and Fzun did some trolling.

Ah, the days of my youth, like the scent of fresh lemon.

I'm not really mad, just disappointed. Well, maybe a little mad at the person who reported me. They had to read my Livejournal to find out my age. It isn't listed on my userinfo nor my ff.net account, only in my entries. Then they had to take the time and effort just to report me.

So, thank you, random anonymous asshole reader, for denying me the right to post porn, for denying me the right to post in a great community based on something so trivial and so superficial. As if good yaoi communities weren't already goddamn hard to find. As if I needed another reminder of something I have been criticized for my entire life: my age.

Yaaay. In 2010, on my 18th birthday, I am sure the first thing I'll think when I wake up is, "Now I can post the fanfic that I wrote three years ago!"

I know it's, you know, technically illegal and all, but I do take this as another reminder of something I rather dislike being reminded about.

And I am kind of sad that I got banned before I could post the sequel.

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 13:42:25 GMT

so hey guys

what are good ways to waste time

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 18:03:46 GMT

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY I just wrote like a ton of hot gay vampire porn! AND CARAMELS. PECAN CARAMELS.

BEAT ROD TANK EMPTIES

aaaaAAaand I'm spent. I'm going to bed and I'm going to crash since I so tired uwaa.

QUESTION: HOW WAS YOUR VALENTINE DAY SPENT?

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 00:20:29 GMT

42 percent of Internet users ages 10 to 14 have viewed sexual images
Article

CHICAGO - More children and teens are being exposed to online pornography, mostly by accidentally viewing sexually explicit Web sites while surfing the Internet, researchers say.

Forty-two percent of Internet users aged 10 to 17 surveyed said they had seen online pornography in the past year. Of those, 66 percent said they did not want to view the images and had not sought them out, University of New Hampshire researchers found. Their conclusions appear in February’s Pediatrics, due out Monday.

“It’s beyond the wild West out there. You’ve really taken away the age of innocence,” said Dr. Michael Wasserman, a pediatrician with the Ochsner Clinic in Metairie, La., who was not involved in the study.

OH NO the PORNOS is causing TRAUMA TO MY BRAIN!!!

Guys! Quickly! The over 6000 pornographic images on my harddrive are going to corrupt my innocence!

(...that's the first time I've ever really tallied up my porn. There's probably more scattered around my harddrive. I really didn't know I had that much.)

Ironically, I don't "accidentally" run into porno sites anymore. Maybe my pop-up blocker is the cause but I doubt it since I rarely see the "blocked pop up" thing anymore. The only time I run into them are Google searches for somewhat ambiguous terms like "Anime girl", but they should probably know better than to click on links described as "Anime girl licking and finger pussy (4) · Horny hentai nurse banged hard (3) ... Cute anime girl gets slammed (04) ... Anime girl gets power fucked (15) ...".

Oh, and maybe ads on the sides of pages like, say, Ebaums. But you actually have to click on those to get led to the sites. When you click on a banner ad with some woman sucking on a penis labeled "HOT GIRLZ XXX ON YOUR COMPUTER!!!", that is not "accidentally" being led to the site unless you are blind and clicking aimlessly on your screen.

If you want to preserve your child's innocence, here's step one: Don't fucking let your kid on the internet. Unless you load a dozen content-control programs and restrict everything your kid views, and don't let them on ANY chatsites or messageboards, they're going to find something sexual. Maybe not outright porn, but sex is a part of life and WILL be talked about in great detail by the amount of hormone-heavy teenagers all over the internet.

Step two in preserving your child's innocence: Shelter them. Don't let them in school. Somebody's going to talk about sex there! Plus that whole "sex ed in Kindergarten" thing. Don't let them go to Target with you - they'll find the condom aisle! Don't let them go to the grocery store! They'll see the tabloids and ask, "Mommy, what's a celebrity sex scandal?"

Most of all, no TV and no radio. Those commercials are the devil but even worse is the actual programming. Rap music? Tainting your child's ears! Plus all those gory courtroom dramas and sexual talk shows and what have you.

The 21st century is not a place for children.

LESBIANS!!!!!

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 16:01:40 GMT

Guys! I'm becoming a lesbian!

Somewhere in the world, Kai's penis perks up. (Well, it always does. I think it does every time I say the word "lesbian" because he wants to see me get it on with another chick.)

Well, I guess. I'm finding myself less attracted to men when it comes to mentality - my last couple of crushes have been on chicks alone. They're more emotional, sensitive, and I can relate to them better.

And they're not as goddamn hardheaded and/or horny as nearly every relatively straight guy I've met. There are a few exceptions to the hardhead/horny rule, but only a few, like gelurtish, but I believe that ship has sailed. Knowing fzun she'll probably jump his bones or something anyway because she ends up doing that to like any guy I know. It's inevitable. She's like the female Kai only she actually gets laid.

Somewhere in the world, Kai's penis goes flaccid. HA. HA. (I'm sorry, Kai, I'll stop insulting you now.)

That isn't to say I don't like men. Oh, no. I much prefer them physically still - not to say I don't like some boobies, but I still much prefer the male form. So strong, muscular, toned, sexy, with smooth chests and penises and what have you. Prostates. Penises are good, guys don't have enough of them these days.

And of course there is yaoi. Most gay guys seem to act more tolerable to me. Sure, a lot of them might fit the latter issue of the hardhead/horny rule but I don't recall ever meeting a hardheaded gay guy.

And I still rather like the idea of a guy ravishing another guy. They're just so adorable when they're being dominated.

So what did all of this text mean? It means I am a bisexual, basically. Har. I prefer strong chests and cocks, but I also prefer a woman's mind. And I enjoy writing about men fucking other men. This all adds up to me dating gay guys.

Hypothesis: Life would all be better if I was born as a homosexual male.

This is Ground Control to Major Tom

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 19:00:49 GMT

So I herd the superbowl is today! GO INDIANA! .. polis! I really have no idea what the fuck is going on in football but I like to watch it because it's a bunch of sweaty muscular men hyped up on testosterone and Gatorade piling up on eachother. It's such an American (read: homosexual) sport.

Oh, yes. Commercials. And half-time. And pre-show! And possibly me throwing up from too little sleep, too much coffee, and too much salad (bleghghfdjkds).

But, glory of all glories, PIXEL ART. I'm up to my ears in the shit. Not bothering to cut it since it's all rather tiny and it's not even 10 KB in combined size.

(base from Angy-Chan)

More over heeeere.

Trauma Center! A delightful game in which I display my extreme ineptitude when it comes to anything vaguely resembling surgery! Yet somehow I have managed to stumble my way through a couple of levels, even with my cranky assistant constantly screaming at me. I'm playing the DS version though. I'm not cool enough for a Wii. :'(

GUITAR HERO II! Raping my wrists! It's fun as hell though and I can nail Heart-Shaped Box on Expert real well. Though their Kurt Cobain impersonator sucks so many balls.

"He broke the kiss and let out a growl, a low, guttural, animalistic noise in the back of his throat, then kissed down his neck, lapping up the blood from his bite wound eagerly, ready to take what was rightfully his. "You taste so -good-," He hissed, gripping the prosecutor's side so hard it left bruises in the shape of his fingertips, then bit in hard and without hesitance, sinking in deep."

Vampire porn. Gay vampire attorneys. This is what I have been writing lately! They always told me I'd be a great writer, pumping out best-seller novels and what have you...

Now I'm writing gay vampire lawyer fanfiction. It's so wrong. But it feels so Wright.

I apparently have too much free time. In other news I am going to hell.

GO INDIANAPOLIS!! YEAH!

WHAT

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 01:53:21 GMT

AHAHAAHAHAHAFDSGHSDJFHdsfgfd

You guys want to read something really hilarious?

Well, it's time for RADI'S OLD WRITING

BWHAHAHAHa

September 21, 2003. Note I was ten when I wrote this bullshit.

SELF-INSERTION HARVEST MOON FANFICTION TIME!! I apologize so fucking much to Hannah and Kayla and the world and the english language. I am -ashamed-. Feel free to rofl at how terrible this is, I will not blame you in the least.

One day KiT was walking through the friendly and peacefull town known as Mineral Town. The birds were chirping, flowers were blooming, and the chickens were squaking all over the poultry farm which happened to be her destination. She slowly walked upto the farm house, beside the chicken coop, breathing deeply. She knew she was ready. She knocked on the door, and her heart felt caught in her throat. Suddenly the door swung open only to reveal Karen. Kit's arch enemy. "Oh it's you, slut. What do you want?" KiT rolled her eyes, and put her hands on her waist. "I want to talk to Rick." This seemed to cause the erruption of laughter coming from Karen's lips. "Your so pathetic!" Kit didnt find this funny however, and insted just bravely said. "Step aside y'whore." With that said, KiT took a swing at Karen and watched her collapse into a heap on the floor. KiT grinned, happy with her work and proceeded to see Rick. Rick seemed startled at first but then smiled warmly. "I knew you'd come." KiT smiled, as Rick watched her from the couch. "May I join you?" "Well.." Rick hesitated. "Karen might get mad, she's really mean when she's drunk and I dont want her to do anything..." he was stopped, as KiT put her finger on his lips. "Hush, Karen is sleeping. Thus we have the night to ourselves." Rick's frown twisted into a smile as he hugged KiT tightly. "Your the best" he whispered. "I know." That night KiT and Rick engaged in love making and KiT never felt so fufilled. Karen was dragged outside and was being fed to the chickens by Hannah and Popuri, whom were good friends of KiT's. KiT woke up to the glimmering light shinning through the window, she was ontop of Rick's chest and felt happy for once. "I love you" she whispered. She got up, and scurried across the bedroom floor, the cold felt good underneith her feet. As she reached the stairs Rick moaned. "What is it?" "I want to ask you something" Rick said, smiling. "Will you marry me?" "Of course I will!" KiT smiled, running back to Rick and hugging him tightly. "I'll never let you go, I love you so much..." "I love you too." The two embraced for minutes. "We'll be together forever, and that whore Karen will be gone for good!" KiT said with a full smile. The two sat on the bed hugging for what seemed to be an eternity. "Never let me go." KiT whispered. "I waited too long for this." "Dont worry, I wont sacrafice the chance of not seeing you." Tears of joy filled KiT's eyes and everything seemed so right. The next day, KiT was talking to her two best friends, Kayla and Hannah. "It was the best day of my life." Kit said smiling as she showed them her engagement ring. "Oh and look what Rick bought to make it official." She pulled out a blue feather. "Wow...your so lucky." Hannah commented, with a slight tone of envy. "I wish Gray would care for me as much I do him. I'm glad to see your happy with the man of your dreams though, no doubt." Kayla smiled aswell. "Cliffie asked me to meet him at the summit." She squealed with excitement. "I hope he expresses his love for me." She giggled. Hannah and Kayla looked at eachother. "We can still dream." Hannah said laughing. Suddenly, KiT broke in. "Dream, cause you never know when your dreams will come true."

GAHGFGHDGFJD *commits suicide*

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 02:13:48 GMT

HDTV really is better.

If you go on American Idol, don't sing Freddie Mercury unless you know you can pull that shit off.

Vampires are hot.

Kingdom Hearts is ridiculous. Minnie Mouse's head is huge as hell. Sora is an annoying kid in the way he acts, looks and sounds, and I don't know why or how he has such a large fan following. Kairi is, of course, a Mary-Sue (who isn't) with the tried and true amnesiac cliche. And Riku sounds like he's got the same voice actor as Ethan from Phantasy Star Universe even if he doesn't in reality, and Ethan is a giant wanker, so I can't take him seriously.

Also, half of the story doesn't make sense so far. Nobody's fucking explaining anything and I'm tired of these stupid door and key metaphors. "You must open the door! You hold the key! The door is not yet open but it will open soon, the door is both close to opening and far away, you will soon open the door" blah blah. GEE, I wonder if this has anything to do with my weapon being a KEY?

Guitar Hero's guitar controller is not compatible with Kingdom Hearts. Aww.

And now I'm off to eat hickory-smoked horse buttholes.